2004-03-09 - 12:10 a.m.

Well let's try it again. I was writing about all the shtuff i had been up to and things of that sort but now i really don't feel like writing it all over again. I was also writing about how in seven days Ms.Kris will be flying here to spend some time with me!! yay!! can you believe it!! I can't!! I won't believe it till we're hugging and she's right there breathing in the same air i am !! ooh wow!! she'll be here !!! right here! in my bed, loooking at all my stuff, wrapped in my blanket..now you know it's serious when i share my blanket. wow, she's bringing me a promise ring hehehe She says that someday in the future she'll ask me to marry her. Hopefully things in politics will be settled by then lol :) A promise ring is a nice beginning. Takes our relationship a step further. Not too fast not too slow! *sigh* everything feels soo good! It will be four months on Wed since she asked me to be her girlfriend. hehe I'm just so excited!

For some Reality that's beyond anything ...my cousin has cancer. Wow, that hit me really hard when i heard on saturday. I was soo lost and upset and sad and I depressed all my roomies. I wanted to call kris but i didn't want to scare her or wake her up it was like four of five in the morning. My roomies were soo lost they didn't know what to say. They were confused at first cause i was laughing...because that's how i am... and then i just was crying and crying. They're coolness though they just let me know they were there for me. I really needed a hug and even though yvonne was there i was afraid... i'm just strange like that, afraid that i would step over boundaries even though that's rediculous cause i hugged yvonne when she was sad about her dad possibly leaving to iraq. I'm a dork. but anywho. my cousin and i are close, she's my godmother and she's just always there for me. If i ever need anything all i have to do is ask her. *sigh* She'll be okay...or so i hope. She's a fighter. I know she can *sigh* enough! i'm done!